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The Lady of the Camellias

from CC​:​PP by CC:PP

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These are really two poems conjoined,
but like Siamese twins, despite the two heads,
they share
one body, one heart
and were born of the same love
at exactly the same time..
See if you can catch the line
of demarcation between them
I think it's quite obvious,
but when one is too close to the mirror
It gets harder to see the whole
Our vision gets blurry as we lose our perspective...

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In this crush of petals
Where Hope lies bleeding
Left only to perfume
The stony mortar
Of a resolute resistance...
I ache for you

My heart halted
Can no longer keep the rhythm
Of Dawn's dance
Nor feel the alchemy
Of Night's slow heavy breath


That which once gave life to us
Is now in arrest

The vow of the stars
Shatter in the futility of my muted cries.
The galaxy quakes
The skies like brittle bones break
As the pestle of a terrible Reality grinds
Pulverizing the patience of an already restless Time.

My tears become a sacrilege to my eyes
For my mind sacrosanct in its commitment
To the justice of us
Refuses the witness to see
Such villainous mutiny
Against the captain who unfurled the sails of our Bounty
Gliding us along the glassy trust
Of Love's
Horizonless blue
In Eternity, we drank deep and cruised true.

My blood now no longer flows free
It sputters and pools
Flooding the gutters
Holding the air hostage
to this treasoner's body


My poisoner veins protest the pain in
This sullen shell
Attacked by a forlorn female infused with a frantic Frenzy
An alien
Whose lying lips wail
Whose throat chokes on the pale
Sobs that soak
The curse
"He does not love me"
into an unwilling host.
Its viral language trapped in the contagion of Doubt's cells
Draining the well


Tell her, the liar, that it's untrue
Tell her such blasphemy is for fools
I don't know what to think
What to do
I only know that
The she in the me
The we
Both
Desperately wish to believe
In you
Of you
With you
Or die
In the suffocation
Of the blanketing lie
without you.


These battlestations
a self-immolation,
Burn in the barrage of words
Fired like bullets
Burrowing in the tender places that hold onto faith
My fealty, a sacrifice,
Trapped in the line
of Psyche's own crossfire
The hemoptysis, a confused Pandora's releasing
A catharsis of the vile thought
Trying impossibly to escape the mind of Zeus


In spes phthisica, perhaps
My Lady of the Camellias consumption
could at last feed Delusion's need
And find peace in that final exaltation

If I could with a last kiss explain to you
how much you're missed,
our lips would never part...

I should stay away, I know, but I
have nowhere to go
Because I, in my infinite madness, still hope
Somehow
Within the flight of a blackbird's broken-winged rise
My presence can still draw you nigh
To ride proud on my prow.

This ache
This need
Is why the Nile bleeds
And why Aetna still shivers
Beneath the surface of countless Centuries
Of hardened cold ash
Feigning calm

It is why the tectonic plates
Chafe and crack the Earth's shell
The searchlight eyes of Forever lies
In the redemption
From a lonely hell
Collapsing the light.

And men create Gods for such purpose
And the Gods
Like abandoned children
In the wilderness
Die
For lack of it...

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from CC​:​PP, released July 16, 2011
CC - florid words
PP - musical flourishes

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"The sublime and the ridiculous are often so nearly related, that it is difficult to class them separately..."
Thomas Paine, 'The Age of Reason'

"Scientists believe that the universe is made of hydrogen because they claim it's the most plentiful ingredient. I claim that the most plentiful ingredient is stupidity."
Frank Zappa
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